well im feeling great now, 100% well not really but yeah im feeling pretty.

yeah i was feeling a bit bitchy yesterday - actually really bitchy. and hurt real hurt. but im getting better.

it ended up this way - i went over to give her her hat, she pulled me and told me to speak to her, i didnt at first. went back sat down and realised how stupid i was being and that i didnt wanna lose her, i was just being stubborn.

so went back over just as the bell rang and dragged her away, so we talked, she was so upset that i was ignoring her, i was upset that i had been to, cause that i think is really stupid cause im a fool and immature and i just ignore when im angry even for stupid reasons. so i am happy now, best thing of my day. actually best thing in a while it made me so happy that i talked to her again, realising i was stupid to have been so stupid in the first place and i actually said my mind. i never do that face to face. i mean like when im hurt by someone and i dont blurt out what im really thinking but i did this time. i cant believe it, it was so hard but i just needed to say. plus she wanted to know really bad and yeah. so im so happppy now! today was good. though i kept looking over at the spot.

im so happy. i even talked to ash! which i havent done in so long. cause im a stuborn fool. also to lauren. dam you your name didnt come off when i showered!!! mer. hahahah.

well after school i walked to the city, staring at the sky most of the time. and i bought badge backings, and then bought some tea - yummy lychee green tea with lychee coconut jelly as usual.... but large this time! i always get medium... and then went to comics etc and got gravitation number 10! yay! im obsessed with it again! awwwww. love! and i got $200! out i didnt realise i had so much! and now im happy! meaning only $326 to go! yay! then im free!
and then after that i walked around a bit - saw an awesome choker! but 30 so no.... anyway then went along elizabeth street and saw that the pole has been completely stripped of everything that was there. pictures, messages! and flowers cept for a red and white traffic tape which tied around it. i suppose its cause they dont want people to be reminded about it but still i get a bit upset that they took it down - though that stuff donest need to be there for us to remember her, it just being a sign to the public or sumthing.

anyway then went to big w and bought soooo much candy. and now im eating candy spray and coming to terms with what i should do. and im thinking ...hmmm. puzzled.

anyway lots of people will be missing tomorrow due to musical... awww. i think im going to the musical just ahve to ask rents and get tickets! *snaps* cause we need time togther.

anyway im off to bounce off the walls cause im happy that i am not an idiot and talking to jess. weeeeeei *ouch* forgot about needle arm... mer. that needle was awesome! and no im not becoming a masochist...