i can put my hair into a massssive bun on the top of my head!!!! thats how long my hair is now! yeesssh

finally i have gotten over my depressive state of mind as mentioned (not here) as i wouldnt wanna burden you all with my emoness. hahaha

but today i was out and about ~ sorta. i went a journey of transport changeovers. i left at 10am in little red/visual kei look. complete with red bow! love it! and caught a bus to woolloongabba (has anyone noticed they can all be seperated into different words!) dunno what loon means tho... anyway and then caught bus to cannon hill and walked to work ~ got funny stares from crew at work/managers. cause i had to find out times etc plus i wanted out of the house ~ i think that was what i needed - air and sun! then caught bus home. and then stupidst adventure ever: behold!

ok so i changed into jeans and a oversized blue bow (plus shirt) to go grab some cream cheese - realised after i had gotten undressed that i wanted some - errgh. anyway went down and there was some stray dog wandering round and everyone was befuddled by whoms it was - i thought it was my neighbours. so came out of woolies after and was talking to some woman and i eventually said i thought was neighbours: so i decided to take it home with me!!!!!! bad /o\ 

so i took it home took it outside into backyard (and it was so playful and happy) and ddint bite or anything - just so happy and didnt care about anything. but when walking past neighbours i saw their dog in their yard and i realised why it looked familar !!! (it was my brothers friends dog, well looked like) so i rang up dad and said i tought it was their dog. so i gave it some water and some bacon (i thought was hungry and boy was it) so then it was running round garden and it discovered the guineapigs cage ~~~~~ arrrgh! so it decided there was sumthing in their and wanted into the cage - so it tried constantly trying to get in! i was worried so i tried to get the gunieapigs out of cage and put into house for time being. and dog wouldnt let me!!!! so i got the hose and kept wetting it and then kept following me and wanted in ! it  had the weirdest expressions on its face like "i want in ~ let me in" "i am gonna bite you but i know ur gonna spray me in the face again" "i shall stay behind you and you wont know and then ill get the pigs" yeah - trust me it had weird expressions. 

then dad rang and said it was their dog - thank god!!! but then i had to fix the problem of it gettin inot cage so i grabbed an old belt and roped it to the clothelines. god ~ surprisingly it didint bite me or anything when i attached it!!! so then it staretd moping and such - i ignored it. and had lunch.

came back after lunch and there was this massive round circle of dirt and holes - it was diggging so much!!!!!! mer. so now we basiclly have a trench surrounding the pole - mer.

in total the activity of trying to get the dog away form guineapigs/attaching to pole took about an hour!!!!!!! mer and boy was i tired! 

anyway they later picked him - bad dog always runs away.

and i started ms - sorta. and doing now. and i decorated my room more - with guro masks. hahahah and nearly finishing headress. and designing designs.

fun fun fun! and now im tired but have to decide what to do for ms - have soooo much info but not sure what to use and what arguments - fuck! hahhaha

anyway have to come at 12:50! so i shall do some shopping before - with rents money ! hehehehe. must buy stuff - have decided im a spendaholic /oOo\ very very bad! i think its almost like a compulsion... lack of buying makes me depressed - god im so materialistic! fuck!

anyway now im off to look at more burando ~ aka brands of  lolita fashions! hahah and will do more diy ~ bat clips!

oww and i saw some reallly cute hairclips today!!!! with strawberries!!!!!! hehehehe ata  doll shop! arrrgh need moneys! sooon!

oh and snowy money is due on the 15th!!! which is like friday? must tell rents. 

well today i have beeeen doing stuff:
i did an english draft at 8:30 this morning after a text woke me up!!!!! mer.
i did a bit of bio research... yeah a tiny bit...
i did a bit of highlighting on history. fuck screwed!!!
and i kept going into the pantry/fridge cause im a fatty chan. and wouldnt get full! merrrr. sucked! im gonna grow fat if i continue to be a depressed whiney baby.

ok so today was my fat day... i feel like taking out a huge laser and chopping off all of fat and pimples and just in general my face. i hate my face. after looking at myself in the mirror i decided how fat i am and how disgusting i look. im a disgrace to girls. yeah i complain to much i know. oh well just chuck me off the bridge. i wont care and no one else will either. so just get it over and done with already and put me out of my misery. and im not saying that in a jking way. unfortunately.

ok so everyone has already said this: that they dont think they cant survive year 12. ive had so many poeple tell me you. so freaking many!!!!!! and they have need to say it! i dont want them to say it! i dont wanna hear it! its gonna depress me even more and i dont particularly want that! i mean seriously. so lets all put on a show just for this year. try and least pretend to be happier than we are. it surprisingly works wonders. making urself! i mean actuallllly making urself pretend ur happy actually makes you feel better than u actually are. and if not. then ill just go jump off the bridge. cause i dont want anyone to commit suicide ok. even though i know none of you would ever have the guts too. would ya? i know you wouldnt. you know people love you. and im glad you think that. well i suppose you thnk that.

but seriously i dont want any of you to die. i mean i wouldnt be able to survive not knowing people love me. even though i dont know if i can anyway. but still. i love every single one of you! well all my freinds at school! i love you guys. awww shucks im getting teary. 

lets be in a play. and make everyone believe.